as i told, for You, You have hard to understand, is easy, with snap of a finger, You can find in ANY place, ANY corner of street, ANY website, more guy's who want to try to be in relationship then can fit to life plan... but for my kinds, this is complete complete complete different, it takes a lot of work even to get other trust on my looks, even more to my plans, reason to be, and then by the time, we end up in my past situation and present that is NONEXISTENT basically, in eyes of a new person, nothing to show , or to offer.. then there will be nothing left to hold on and to build beliefs on ... and as i know upfront out of caring others, how they would most likely feel and see and think... or how they do... then i can not even insult them by approaching.. knowing, this would just add bad taste to their day and to my name, as then i made them think no good of me and this will put me even more deeper swamp in spiritual and time line... and same time, i have assured feeling, that most important, is to save the world, that i have to do even if no one does, but most likely everyone should... but maybe they not remember... ... then knowing also intellectually, why i am and what i have to offer and what will i working for... and knowing, year after year what i get in return, only from a god and from a few women will get amount that is promised : to keep me alive, with few tools... but this is about it, and what i wanted to say about it... well, knowing what i have to offer, how i feel in caring way to all, even mosquitoes i feel bad if accidentally kill one (same time i not let them feed of me, but when they do.. i try to get them outside...) .. and instead of me getting even a one person, .. who would just sit down and want to know me in trust me, so we can start building up the plans.. and do and do and do... fix worlds inside and outside... instead, they, (a Woman) will mostly focus on material or just some other good looking guys who have not a slightest plans of this kind, who will even put un kind feelings to them later when they break up or keep being in bed while talking no good about her with friends... who poisons ther body or mind, with entertainment and with drugs for no better reason then "feels good" ... complete mindless in my way looking... ... so yes.. mostly these man are chosen... because they can offer material .. (not even talking about the ones who take with teror and force, psychological tricks.. and illusions..) becouse they do not worry about judgement or what is right or wrong, they live in today, not worry about tomorrow, or if do, then material way about them self... and among them are many guys i honor, as they at least do really focus on their women and work hard for the family, bot talking about them, they keep society alive, even if they also are talked trahs and they end up in simple mistakes and emptional trouble becouse they not focus, as 2.. to sort out what is life and how to get it betewr in all levels.. as on going work.. they shy to talk about it about eachother anmd thjem self... even if they 10 years marryed.. instead looking TV togheder or something.. but .. these ones who womens meet up in massive way. for short relationships... i just ... how can i keep belief, women to be extra ordinary powerfuly knowing being, when guys with few internet tips and arrogance and alcohol if needed, mostly just life-error-and-try traininag and reccomendations from others who good at breaking down womens barriers.. will get sooo soo soooooooooo much love and spent tears and feelings and attention and all... but if there is someone, who want to fix a world, seriouslly, in a heart, so EVERYONE can have good life, then this is just pooring, "to complicated", "impossible", "illusion", "interesting but not interested", "interesting, good luck with it" and other reactins like that... or/ and more often... a lot will feel "ok" but then even if Female her self does not have aim to fix a world at first nor find a persons like that... when she starts to think it to be "sweet" or "interesting, good" idea.. then they willing to break it away, quit, just by some disagreement, political or religious one, material or intelectual one and return to the ones, who will give NONE of that at all, even going for people .. in world where they can easily find thousands of guys in a day, literally, (tested with fake female dating profiles, even by not doing anything, in FB, putting great picture got me i guess more then 100 letters in short time, and this was not even dating website, old times try in dating website same test,,, mailbox was FLOODED, in instant... with all kind of tricks and words, by the ones who copy paste them to hundreds of womens i assume...) Is like women would not be interested, at times, about making world alright, is like they would not understand, this is WORK that can bind man and women, friend or couple, in to one, for longer time then our life is... with easy effort, .. just doing as much we can but believing, in one work... and ideology's that are benefitial.. and plans that are doable.. just what kind of logic is that... i would understand, if someone will choose BETTER version, what is needed for a world and all women.. but no... they just choose whatever , ho ever is willing to say nice words, things... give things or do things...or say things... but WHERE IS THE PLAN FOR LIFE?