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Womens liked this book so much ,
i think this book was nicked yesterday by accident by one person :D

(from the book)

(this book is written by girl)

if me would know what is this world you (we, me+you world together, what point of view this world has, and what more closer or open our worlds go to each other, this more new things can be said what we are (we=me+you, world, connected worlds))

have not placed any of this on you jet... still wanting to see you from your own way as me sees that this is something what is your stereotype - you the one who does not wanna be framed or looked from the point of view.. of one or another

but then again, if this book is complete, there should be some guidance there that maybe we can see is that what you going through
(point of this book, Song of Eve, is that all these powers and much more and inside all women - or they can get access - to call out/ inside her all of it and much more... )

I have this book to pinpoint different "profiles" of women being,
like mother, virgin, Aphrodite, Kali,Athene, Salome, Isis etc...Archetypes and real myths..

why you often talk like you have no friends/hope/solutions but same time do not wanna friends as well.. to let yourself close to people like me, for starters
me who only wants all human and spiritual and other thinking and feeling beings to get on with each other whit most amount of pleasure whit least amount of worry of doing wrong... while doing most right out of all we know

For sure, you have places to get...
i will talk to polish crew, they really nice and organized mostly

as said, no late out in the shelter; weekday afternoon i hv class everyday. Free only on sunday. Knowing that i hv no where to stay, the shelter is now giving me extra time. Till when and i just hv no idea. thanks for inviting.

we almoust sure we going, let us know if wanna .. soeme people more coming maybe

hmm.. anyway, let about urself kow sometimes, if any opoint in future to ask to party

we paqy for u if you want but for women only 8 pounds, other nice girl from squat also coming,

We are going to sauna with one other estonian guy, if you are interested to .. emm our number is 07440384533 ...

Like looking up fb name of yours, translation shows Fei Bashi - and that returns only story about boat named so

search comes up with Japanese tourist websites / and not much there...

So would like to know how computers do not know,

Did you speak Japanese and China and.. ?

Yes, you think its all dream, and material has not so much value / me accept that but just hoping on other way around
if that makes sense

*(like machine translation vs reality, what is coming up and how by looking same from different languages . Characters ... plus whatever you think top of what we need,

would y

Would like to learn Chinese & Japanese internet & search motor whit you

Like most simple and basics things,
not even so sure what will i learn, but for sure something

is still

it was so great

its alright

i was not online during day time today, just found this.

aa aadrress
try to get the Camdaondwn, kentishdown station is more close

Greets, come today to our bitcoin meetup in squat were is May, spider, dave... lot of great people, clean great social center like squat, amir and me here as well with more people

glad that made you Smile :D

=D =D =D

but yea, just wanna be sure, you know - we want you around,
well, at least me wants
even tho.. you not so much of and entusastic about having talks or actions whit me

:)

If there is person with who to sleep, would like to sleep well more, for sure .

But yeah, I'm good but state natural flow is to keep things and all better

U want what u want, its same as me

ur choice to make.
me, not want anything BETTERr or whatsoever, I want only what I want. No sleep, for sure not my choice.

need also better, everything

my self on the edge of something not sure... have not been sleeping for many days properly.. was thinking that there should be possible to not sleep for people..

well, come to see us anyway..so u know if there is any point.. or for sure u wanna something better

making a better time table for myself... hv to move out this week ''normally'' but i dont know the exact date out cause the found said nothing more. ;p
let me see.

our squat starts to get ready, its chill, cleaner and calmer... with furniture... can you come to check us out now days ? " )

Good Good Year of new...

Ust got ur msg when ur in my mind.. but thats normal

yeah, thanks

Better?

Of-course you are, but ... as of sympathizer of causes, am like to think, the reasons what i gout and why.

Am not necessarily thinking these viruses always to be bad as they might be fighting .. or repairing something in body low level at times as well... and for that immune system have to be tempered with, ... but yeah,
answer is, as always, Love

i believe there is an army inside body
whenever Im weak, can't focus or tired... because all the energy is the back up of cells, they are fighting against the virus/bateria
and I know Im about to win

How you now ?

slip from my mind to tell you that...

you should co-operate and learn from illness, not fight Darling ...
relax... body knows what do do.

if not dying, must be BETTER! My body is fighting

Starting to feel better... already ? : )

really? will see.

will do ..

sometimes

think you are god? or magic hand? take away the sickness??

awwa...
can i help out some how?

flu. more cough, running nose, tired...

from cold ? .. or

are you feeling better today?

sorry. was so sick last night, didn't ask anything, just fell asleep...

There is no washing service in the shelter.

but yea... if you ask.. from the place, is it possible to come there sometimes to use washing machine, visit or eat
and what times etc..

I had one night 2 tickets again and wanted to drive where u are, give u ticket and drive to our squat (bus 25 Bow, or buss 8) ... few buses more but will get numbers later

this was actually from heart, positive question

but yeah,
would you get in relation for life time with some one from China or for you did not matter from where person is ?

(far away was asking something like that, and thought answer from u was that it does not matter, but just make sure am remember right. Am still a bit nationalistic in spiritually - am like to believe.. )


We decorated the squat a bit and bring new furniture,
so looks better if u ever happen to come, visit even

can you ever tell something also waht is not right :D

pointless or not, your decision

...
just u know... staing strong .. but seem no point to stay alone and strong
like whats the point

stay strong; taking care for onself is essential

i wish i could care for you.. but cant

cant even care for my self..

(Y)

dont care. I will just sleep. too dizzy.

of cos, to sleep where im now.
hv no code for internet

(do you happen to have hackny or idea shop internet codes? as am running out of time here in 29 minutes..)

hmm, you mean in here or in there?

wonder if anyone would bother me if i just lie down sleeping on the floor?

but now im not feeling well.

once I was seen talking to ppl not from the shelter outside, the staff asked who was the person.

Hv to ask, Im not sure.

should i come for dinner? : )

u mean come to the shelter? I hvn't seen friend visiting there. Only ppl who hv been staying before, come for dinner (some of them come quite often), and sometimes the food really good

Do you want me to come visit ?
(in case me would need aadress anyways.. not sure about the squat in islington)

thanks for the squat update.
I'm staying in a emgerency shelter which is on the same street of one of the squats I've stayed in Islington. Becky was staying there too. However, there is a time restriction. Early out and early home, attendance will be kept for record, which means I can only be free during the day before 7pm.

nice motive.
government likes to waste ppl's money anyway.
They used to do everything EXPENSIVE.

Thinking too much is not the way, wrong judgement leads to misunderstanding.

as someone told "if nothing good to say.. say nothing at all" ..
did you see this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5GryIDl0qY
- perhaps will stay ower here and help to make it in England this year as well. If ur interested as well for sure let know..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84yMK26iX3o : )

Besides this
... not much to add

Looked the new place, its kind of like combination of prison cells and ware house, with no water jet .. and a bit dusty. Near Bow, fearfield road after the huge castle looking house.. there is red color.. carages.. there we are

and what can come from me if me tries to act with people in actions mostly as other people do?
themselves

Like, if me would not take you personally, would take you as just some being with who maybe is good to talk hour or two but not so important, with who is good to live in same street, house, room, bed - but really does not matter for You so how can it matter for me or why?

Some real talk now, on ground.

Better to keep door open to everybody im heart, as there might be chance that these bits of humans who still are compatable would have more chance to have connection and walk in to life chance - if that thingy excists. The chance,

that sounded a bit to Zephyr-pinky poetic.. but something like that is what am doing but belivingly more 'readical' way,

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We are moving to one other squat tomorrow still around bow, will let you know situation near days but there was lack of water,
is also Backy and Orhio squat (whitechappel perhaps) where was Amir as well, so this would be good people to contact with.



Where are you now by address and what is the situation? (and me interested always from emotional to family to practical situation when asking, ... mostly anything one trustes to share)
Can you stay there longer? Whats the finance situation by upcoming monthly? Is there still rebelion against parents (or was that Y instead you?)
You do have real friends, or good friends in london any? In What university you was in? ...and as of all the situation why you was squatting... am still lacking a bit of picture, what was this you wanted to acomplish (ofcourse.. great huspand to find is perhaps greates accomplisments, well, for a huspand at least) ? Are you up for travel a board or are you rooted to UK for next years to come for some reasons ?

Smiles..
(still some day will want to take up something like this disco night that was mentioning on sms last year.. :)

And as you know, smart girl, me really wants to see, meet and talk with you in as comfartable place as we can, for as long as we can.

so yeah

I really wanna live with you
But only if you like

becouse i am really personal human, take humans personally.

so many things you say is like my my self sees me:
like:
" ... Whatsoever, personally DO NOT like argue for the sake of argue...."
"... Better jump to conclusion ...."
"... If you would like to meet, tell the time and place. .."
"... IF not, I will not ask again...."
"... Friend or not friend, I don't repeat same question/request that often, ...." (usually)
"... for I dont want to MAKE anyone to do anything..." (in the end)
"... I'd like to take action..." (ulimatelly)

"... the past is the past..." (sometimes)
"... i experienced more than once to be disappointed by people when i was asking for help..."
"...Still, whenever people would be okay to help, no need to beg...."

(but asking from strangers, begging from friends and strangers and asking from friends is Four different things, unless you ask it tho religious point of view then its all same - asking it from World, Greator - from heart.
But you can not demand in spruce wood from fir three stump to grow apples, now)
...you can ofcourse... but to make conclusions about that how good apple three one is ....


"...I am pretty straight forward though...." ( like to think so... )


" ...how* are you now ?
"...in which way???..." (now am usually telling " How would i know...?..." )


"...Maybe because I don't take weed, which make me a more "realistic'' dreamer..."
(am almost same but me takes that to be more realistic, but thats another topic. You are right for sure as well, but thats also another topic - in the world where me has only one topic really... mapped out, long time ago. Improved daily, sometimes. Based on hope)



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"...IF no further reply, urgent or not, my business to deal, not others..."
----
"...the night i slept outside, was waiting just outside a shop, asked at least 5 ppl, no one was willing to borrow me..."

(people who do begging business first 10 people is just for warm up... They cold even tell you the mindset of peole on what street you was asking - in front of what shop, That was there any chance to get any help there or not by basic street logic, but to be honest with my a bit religious mind sett, even me often will not ask more then 5 people... still shy maybe.)
Usually people help always - and they would help you more then me, naturally.

"...a phone to call... it depends on luck too.."
----
"...this world is not about being nice or not.."

Well, that is main, most main thing around what, why... me tries to write you so long... as suspecting you might think something liek that becouse of reallity where we are in.
How to say that this point - what seems so as You say about World, if to look it so,
and even if it is so in high level, STILL - there is a way, that the niceness philosophy is only way to progress as human species

- I just can not leave you alone

you are so smart i have not figured out how to express that i am right (throught humor can be looked situation like this)

Comparing me and you rights is like 2 different life forms that are really similar

am Sorry that you felt me not lissening you ...
and will try to be really sorry as wel... and am.. usually.. many times already.... but
keep being straight...

unless you are same weird as me and full of complexes, pranoias and unsecurityes ... or england polaitness...
then am still thinking ... its not how it should
and at no way as you know, my mind can not blame in the end , you .. - or at least, me wanna belive in to that direction, and failing at every minute most of the day...
and keeping my other side of brain on balance with rationalaty and relaizing that me have to bet better.. .as
as long the replys come that me does not dream to see
what She would wanna to say..
then me have to work on work on work on problem...

of language expressions

wanna be smart enought to figure out what is here
what is good(even tho you belive ...
i belive its impossible or most fasinating so much of what is true when people talk about what they belive in to - becouse if thats true, what they say.. that must mean so much - for so many, for so sure...)
and we should continnue from there

Neeh, me should thank You for your time, in my world.
I more belive in good and more better, just putting beliefs in to practise takes some effort, and people, maybe.

understood. you keep talking, not feel like you listened to me.

Again, your longer explanations are developed from the same idea. I got them all earlier. And the part of right and wrong thing, as I know you do believe that and I DON'T.

When talking about trust, by your questions/opinions, dont feel like i am trusted too. Anyway, thanks for the time. keep the way you are. no problem. I will have my mind. Thanks for your time.

actually wrote transskript about waht me thinks what happened...

thing is am do not know, are you one of the rich kids imitating poor or someone who is rebel against parents or someone who is actually lost in heart or someone who is lonely or someone who is in fun traveling looking the world and whatever comes - will not plan to be involved to most if nothing at all that comes on road... do you care about people around you or you have some totally other thoughts in head... do you dream about kids in country side or investigating humans as aliens or are one of them
who do and do not care really...
or who just tries to go as mice.. and just took what world offers or as zen as can be.. and try to just to get end of the life with not many demands.. or
hmmm so much
me could continue but feel not mentioning much that would explain you in ways you could feel

when its complicated... then often am write in parts.. and will try to put it to one pack latter, compress it to smaller words that says it all, more clear, and what is needed...
(but as am said.. this was draft of what was in head in a way how to represent what words to you so they would make sense , in the end comes out no sense and lot of wasted internet time for you to read this confusion of mind )

Oih - this last letter was no really plant to sent, but as time ended up in last seconds and am was thinking where to copy this, to make some sense and logically beautiful letter out of it.. then thought to just send draft on here then rather loosing it as perhaps there was some good thoughts in there.
By taking in to consideration that it all might look a bit mad and rather less needed

am just using basic information looking the world (from this situation as well)

a) If person really needs something then asks
b) if person trusts someone then asks, even more, often
c) if person situation is more important then "whatever" then person puts emphases on things, pressure, more notices, repeats, push - ON friends at least, or on state as they are obligated to react (if we want) as well

(if any of these things are not done by
pride (in whatever clothing we tress it up),
shyness with coldness or no action forward, to much wait.. then for me that is CLEAR sing that person (most likely) does not fully trust or want to trust me in future times...
also that one has no interest about what we wanna do
OR if we have interest about each-other or about someone.

And if that does not matter for the person, if me wanna have connection... then for me this is again sing that most likely one - assuming is a good person, as you, )

d) if no reply (what is needed, wished) and recipient is who can be send 10 letters and no chance of offending whatsoever by just with these demands / wishes ... then ...

..then this kind of person looks any luck of pressure or communication as
its from someone who does not care Really to meet, see or receive...

its so important for me to look behind heads what one or other thinks... and ask to make as many new connections as possible.
Thatch what friends should do - unless they are different beings with other kind of understanding and connection and needs from each other ... but even that with most beings am hoping can be solved with language .. to set barriers whats needed... at least as long am can not feel and know in instant if other knows me, so am can relax, and trust, that all that other person does... is as should.. and no need to add extra pressure or demand or expectations with fall down feelings if not fulfilled

Hmm...

You actually really nice but just we happened to have connection in here

most of all am

am still right you know but
( :

just this is how You interact and see and feel how is right. As am have no picture of you what or why you do besides slight imagination based on everything me have understood from you, this is best am can do.

Also best for me is to keep my way as well, as am know.. its based on trust

Wou, you so clean cut

correction: earlier. If you meet her, tell her I have no sim card. If she would like to meet, tell time/ location. Otherwise, just tell not gonna see and I will understand. Cheers.

Maybe because I don't take weed, which make me a more "realistic'' dreamer. Instead of just thinking in head, I'd like to take action.

Friend or not friend, I don't repeat same question/request that often, for I dont want to MAKE anyone to do anything. IF no further reply, urgent or not, my business to deal, not others!

I DO not like assuming what's behind somebody's head SINCE there could be million possibilities.

Whatsoever, personally DO NOT like argue for the sake of argue. Better jump to conclusion. If you would like to meet, tell the time and place. IF not, I will not ask again.

By the way, have you met Mary? Same situation, I sent her message eariler

rest of the people are on stand by...
...once am ending whenever to spot/situation where rediscover each other - up to then just mostly casual talk with direction and hope always upwards ..

but if am known the person dreams or desires what one wants to reveal (some things people just show themselves but am not bothering to go to deep in to people, not much more then they would like, for the ones who have been around me and not to much interested)

But yea,
just am my self giving up soon offering help
as so hard if no one wants straight nothing much ... so feel not lot of use to people who am knowing doing something differently for not known final goal, for me

as friends give as much they need or will tell no and you can ask even more urgently and then friend can see ooh.. one really likes or wants something. for sure lets do it

..yeah.. from what kind of people you ask help, why.. and well, sometimes how in what situation
(for example if someone is in personal depression or engaged with other things and then can not help .. ahh.. you know)

And from friends you do not beg but just as as much as you can : )

how in my mind all means like emotionally mostly plus all else

just my mind...

how come you only like to talk one sentence by one...

its a bit good if in live
but in here, my mind more thinks about all the other things you did not ask or tell besides answering to what you asking :D

in which way???

how*

gow are you now ?

am know am know...
just sometimes me feel people not treating like others as their best friends

a phone to call... it depends on luck too! Then i was too cold and tired, the past is the past.

cultural difference... as you say whatsoever, i experienced more than once to be disappointed by people when i was asking for help. Still, whenever people would be okay to help, no need to beg.

I am pretty straight forward though.

this world is not about being nice or not

the night i slept outside, was waiting just outside a shop, asked at least 5 ppl, no one was willing to borrow me

specially after me got it 3 times in last 5 days, or so

my nr still same 077 1998 0382 .. always you so nice can ask from other people on street and send " HEY MARGUS, WHERE YOu AT, CONTACT ME, ANYTIME YOU CAN, ASAP, AM ON STREET (but still alright or not emergency, just wanna see you as well in whereever u are where we can meet)" something like that would get me going,

maybe its cultural difference but... please express interest and needs strongly... then we can hear that we interested really..

there is other squat as well near by

me did not put so much effort on you as thought you probabaly would not be so happy to be with us or in place where is all nice anyway...
oeh, sorry made you sleep raught :(

but please, express your needs more urgently... we have had good and interesting and crazy time as well.. in squat, a bit coldish right now... but still on Alfred street, boarded house in before bow dlr station...
turn from small street market shop corner next to betting shop

ohh.. no i got it.. you had no SIM card.. :(

sleep outside?
do you not have phone ?

I had not much idea as you really are interested to come and join with us as am was not reciving a lot of interest from you...

i dont know where is the same place, since you didnt tell me.
After one night sleeping outside, I got help from the homeless centre but im not sure how long I can stay.
Life is not easy though... crazy squat still.

strange jep, the link was wrong.

We still at same place now but people open new place.

How you doing and what you doing ?

My life is grazy, still

your map shows nothing when i click in!

try to come if you can

but yea, we go to https://maps.google.com/maps?hq=http://maps.google.com/help/maps/directions/driving/mapleft.kml&f=d&dirflg=d&utm_campaign=en&utm_medium=van&utm_source=en-van-na-us-gns-dd .. come by as well, free life there up to 9, food, and so on

you free of Sin then ..

but i already lost my sin card in nowhereXD

Would be great to see and get to know more, about we

...so where, ? My nr same 07719980382

Im already in london.

the old same squat crew...
my roof is so short.. literally about less then 1.50 meters, ...
but yea, when you will be here? Can you come to christ part?
Amir comes as well

are you in london? im coming back soon, looking for a roof. do u hv something on mind?

Where are you moving around.. would still like to come to Your mind school,
nnah.. (if you ask, what i mean, then dont..)

aaar you who am think you are? :)